Tuesday, August 19, 2008

Rest in Peace


Today has probably been one of the worst of my life. I took Sage in to the Vet for a routine dental procedure. I went to two different vets and both said that she probably need both canine teeth extracted. I really hesitated to get the surgery, partly because it was about $1000 but in the end I decided it was the right thing to do. The vets both told me that she was probably in chronic pain from the teeth, and that pulling them would enhance her quality of life.

I wish I had never listened.... I called the vet at 12:30 from work and they told me that although the surgery had gone really well, she had even woken up afterwards.... she suddenly stopped breathing and they were unable to save her. We lost our Sage kitty.... we still don't know what happened but they are going to do an autopsy and let us know.

I can't even express the grief that I am feeling. Sage was a really important part of our lives. She was sort of a "special needs" animal, and Mike and I always tried to do right by her and make sure she was comfortable and happy. I am going to miss her so much. The worst part is that I can't help but feel like it's all my fault for taking her to the vet. If I hadn't taken her there this morning she would still be here right now, and I would still have my Sage.

So goodbye Sage... we will miss you. You were the bestest, craziest, most special, most loving kitty we have ever had. We love you.

10 comments:

jillian said...

Oh no!! I am so sad and sorry for your loss.

You were trying to improve her happiness and quality of life - a wonderful thing. You could not have known this would happen.

Alison said...

I'm so sorry Maggie.

Catie said...

I'm so sorry. It may be hard to remember at times, but Jillian is right, you were just trying to help her and you couldn't have known this would happen.

Kim said...

I'm so sorry you lost your kitty. Try to focus on the fact that you were doing something everyone (including veterinarians) felt would help her. It is one of those very saddening events that sometimes happens. I'm so very sorry that it happened to you. Maybe it was just her time to go.

The Ninja Knitter said...

I'm so sorry. It's so hard when you don't get to say a proper good-bye to a loved one.

Steph said...

Oh Maggie, I'm so sorry about Sage.

It's very hard losing a pet. Please, don't feel bad about taking her to the vet. You were doing what was best for her. It was just her time. If it had happened at home and you would feel the same for not having taken her.

Sage is safe and cozy in Kitty Heaven now. (I like to believe there's a separate Doggy Heaven where my dog, Bentley hangs out. I'm pretty sure there's a window between the two so the dogs can bark at the cats and the cats can taunt the dogs by strolling casually past.)

Marti said...

I'm so very sorry for your loss.

meegiemoo said...

Oh Maggie, I'm so sorry! Poor little Sage and poor you and Mike. As a kitty mama I feel so sad.

Moe said...

Oh my god, I am so so sorry and sad to hear about Sage. To echo what others have said: you were doing everything you could to love her and take care of her.

Anonymous said...

I am so sorry for your loss. I recently lost one of my kitties and I know how upsetting this is. My thoughts are with you.